Pyro's Life: January 2005 </A>

Friday, January 28, 2005

Screwed up

NP- Glycerine
by Bush

Sometimes, things are really screwed up I've come to realize. There's times you just can't win with people. Thanks to Rachel for helping me remember that little fact...

'I'm never alone, I'm alone all the time. Are you the one, or did you lie?'

Someone lied...

-Shane

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

Confused yet mellow

NP- She Paints Me Blue
by Something Corporate

This gets to be one of my long deep kinda rants, just cause I'm way overdue for one :).

I'm kinda pissed, it's raining outside and my mom won't let me go sit out in the car. She doesn't really get what so significant about being in the car while it rains, but then thats a story in itself that I'd rather not worry about sharing right now.

Stories are made from events and what they mean to you, it isn't meant to be understood by everyone...

I'm really kinda just in general lost lately. I've never wanted to get away from everything as bad as I do right now. That old car is my one way out of this world, even for a moment. Everything's piling up on me. School is becomming tedious. I spend way too much time wokring on homework instead of doing something fun and productive.

And it's only going to get worse next year.

Next year, I'll be taking three honors classes and one AP class, meaning that I'm gonna be working my butt off...

Apart from the troubles of school, there's the rest of life. I feel friendless even though I know I shouldn't. I mean, I have lots of friends and people who I really care about... so I don't know why I feel this way.

I keep thinking of last year and how much better things were. Everyone wasn't so torn apart. Everyone still enjoyed each others company and had a good time together. And if a night was drama free, then it usually was even better. Jessie moving broke the ties between Jessie and Kara almost entirely, which I find somewhat ironic in a sence I guess. After Jessie left, no one really talkes to Katy anymore, I don't think I've seen Katy since October... Holding onto Jessie was definately a very very good thing for me to do. I'm glad that I still am able to talk to her on a somewhat regular basis and be able to be involved in her life still, even though no one else really is...

Kara's been the catalyst for all of us. After a while, everyone just gave up trying and realized it wasn't fun being her friend anymore and that some of the things she brought on herself she shouldn't have to worry about when she's only fifteen. Trying to grow up too fast is never a good thing, once youth it's gone, then it's gone forever. Not saying this is necessarily the case, yet it reminds me of some other things as well.

She really was my best friend and someone special to me, somewhere along the lines, that fell apart. I'm kinda sad that it did, but people change I guess. And we both definately did just that. I guess I just catch myself remembering the memories and good times we had. I know her for the person she is, not who she portrays.

I miss the person she really is...

Trish, Mariah, and I are a lot closer then we were even at the beginning of the year. We always end up hanging out and just generally having a good time. It's always nice to go out without any obligations and just have fun instead of worrying 'whats going to happen this time...'. Thanks to both of you for sticking around and putting up with me, I don't know how you do it.

Only two weeks till SoCo Trish ;)

Then there's Mitch, who has just generally been an extremely awesome guy to me. He's always cool to just hang out with whenever. Whatever lame activity we end up having to go to for church or whatever, we always keep it interesting somehow.

In short, thanks for keeping me entertained bro :).

David's an extremely loyal kid. He's stuck by me all through Jr. High and we've been friends the entire time. I don't have any problems with Dave ever, we just go out and have fun and help each other make it though school without dying of boredom. I'm looking forward to staying friends with him on and beyond High School.

I'm sure I missed someone
Anyways, I really don't understand any reason why I should feel alone or friendless because it makes absolutely no sence. I guess it's just being loved. I know this is going to sound cheesy as all get up, but I miss being with someone. Being able to love and be loved by someone. It's hard when you think you've found that person, only to be let down. I've looked for quite a while, I'm kinda picky. For all the chances I've had with whatever girl (you all know who you are). I haven't taken any of them just because it doesn't feel right to me. I thought Rachel could have been that 'right person', but unfortunately, I don't know if that will happen or not either.

Maybe I just seclude myself from the rest of the world and thats why I feel alone. Keep all my emotions bundled up inside me... that somehow makes sence to me. Maybe I should actually be more open, try a little harder in life...

Missed opportunities don't come back, and I think I've missed quite a few too many. I need to change that, and in general, change me. Cause I'm not happy with the person I am right now, and I don't know why. I'll have to fix somethings I guess, hopefully I'll be able to figure out what exactly that would be.

But as far as being alone, I'll just press on and try to figure out what to do next, cause thats all I can do...

Sorry for any of you I didn't dedicate a paragraph to and who are my friends... Mattie, Lindsey, Jessica (Anderson and Brauer, you've both helped me so much), Brent, Rachel, Bethany, Emmy, Allison, Carrie, Arin, Jared, Lonny, Ed, Kimball, and anyone else I missed.


-Shane

Sunday, January 23, 2005

WEEZER!

NP-Lots of stuff by Weezer
by Weezer
[The Following is a conversation Dave and I had after the dance, summing up the events of the day somewhat. I'm too tired, lazy, and wasted to recap it entirely on my own. So enjoy.]
[One sidenote not mentioned in the conversation, I hung out with Trish, Mariah, Mikelle, Alex, and Colton (I think that’s his name...) before the dance.]
Enjoy,
-Shane

[sum 41-chuck] says:

that was gay

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

j0

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

what was gay?

[sum 41-chuck] says:

I bought chuck around 9

[sum 41-chuck] says:

just got it working 5 minutes ago

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

gay

[sum 41-chuck] says:

except on my comp

[sum 41-chuck] says:

anyways

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

You shoul've gone to the dance

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

it was awesome

[sum 41-chuck] says:

finally I can listen to it

[sum 41-chuck] says:

cool

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

We got sick of crappy music

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

So I changed it...

[sum 41-chuck] says:

?

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

I rallyed up about 25 kids and we all started chanting 'WEEZER' and I made a sign and stuff

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

Elliot and I lead the revolution

[sum 41-chuck] says:

lol

[sum 41-chuck] says:

awesome

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

Then it caught on and everyone chanted

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

we kept doing that for a while and they finally gave in

[sum 41-chuck] says:

lol

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

So we paraded around with our Weezer sign and formed a humongous train

[sum 41-chuck] says:

fun

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

Lots of kids on it

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

Then kept chanting and made more signs

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

Finally, the dude in charge walked over and told us that they had no Weezer

[sum 41-chuck] says:

and???

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

Offered us a negotiation

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

Elliot and I both found a song, Elliot picked Zeppelin and I picked A Long December by Counting Crows

[sum 41-chuck] says:

sounds fun

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

Finally, the last slow song of the night, they played Elliots song

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

And the CD started SKIPPING!

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

We both cried out in utter horrow

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

horror*

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

And I never got my Counting Crows song

[sum 41-chuck] says:

?

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

But, they played an Alien Ant Farm song at the end, which was a small conselation

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

it was a moral victory

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

And it was fun too, which is a plus

[sum 41-chuck] says:

just a plus

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

Danced with Lindsey Rhodes, really cute girl who I went to fifth grade with

[sum 41-chuck] says:

lol

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

Cool to finally see her again

[sum 41-chuck] says:

this is a cool cd

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

I listened to it yesterday AND today

[sum 41-chuck] says:

my mp3 players AAA battery died

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

OMH guess what else I did today

[sum 41-chuck] says:

so, blake gave me a CDRW

[sum 41-chuck] says:

4 FLIPPING X!!!

[sum 41-chuck] says:

SLOWEST CD ON EARTH

[sum 41-chuck] says:

but it worked

[sum 41-chuck] says:

took 10 minutes to burn

[sum 41-chuck] says:

4x...

[sum 41-chuck] says:

didn't know they existed

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

I woke up at six thirty in the freaking morning to go be an extra on Mobsters and Mornons

[sum 41-chuck] says:

I use 52x...

[sum 41-chuck] says:

?

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

some weird movie by the dudes who made Singles Ward

[sum 41-chuck] says:

aw

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

It took FOREVER

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

didnt get paid, nothing

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

just helped out a guy from our ward who needed extras

[sum 41-chuck] says:

Some Say is a cool song

[sum 41-chuck] says:

they all are

[sum 41-chuck] says:

fun

[sum 41-chuck] says:

from your ward?

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

John Lyde from my ward was in charge of Casting

[sum 41-chuck] says:

I woke up at 9

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

I envy

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

youp

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

you

[sum 41-chuck] says:

youp

[sum 41-chuck] says:

cool word

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

lol

[sum 41-chuck] says:

anyway

[sum 41-chuck] says:

yeah

[sum 41-chuck] says:

I made 43 or so bucks today

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

You need to listen to Open Your Eyes by Sum-41

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

Awesome guitar solo

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

Anywho, im wasted

[sum 41-chuck] says:

so does 88

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

And out of a voice and my back and neck hurt from headbanging and screaming

[sum 41-chuck] says:

I'm not the one

19 Days Till Something Corporate says:

So... I'll ttyl

[sum 41-chuck] says:

k

[sum 41-chuck] says:

ttyl

Thursday, January 20, 2005

Another Awesome Jam Session

NP-Tiny Vessles
by Death Cab For Cutie

NP-The Light And The Glass
by Tyler Read (its a band, not a person)

(This can cover two days.)

I don't remember school yesterday real well, probably cause I dont bother to think of it even though it actually was a good day :). Dave and I played again after school and it turned out quite well actually. I really really really really need to take choir next year. An appology to Miss Taylor (Soon to be Mrs. Taylor since she got engaged this week) for not joining this year :P.

Dan, Steve, and I had an awesome jam session last night. Dan brought his keyboard and laptop so we were totally prepared to play around and have some fun. It was really good, especially for me, learned a bit last night. I don't know where I'd be without Dan. He's helped me become a whole lot better then I could have ever been on my own. And I haven't even made it through my first year yet ;).

As for if I'm good or not, I don't think thats my place to say. I guess thats for whoever's heard me play to decide.

Though, from knowing absolutely nothing to what I know now in a year, I think I've come far :).

So last night, I didn't get done till like 11ish and didn't get to bed till much later then that... barely woke up today.

It was a pretty good day today. Infact, new semester has done wonders for me :). Still not happy that Rach isn't in any of my classes because I really would love to get to know her better. We'll see how things turn out I guess.

I need to get myself out of debt and buy some recording equiptment. Probably get a mic and a pod for recording (pod for direct, mic for acoustic) along with some other expensive goodies. I gotta invest a little cash into some guitar gear (new strings, picks, probably buy a slide) as well.

Today Carrie and I pretty much blew off A4 and counted the money we earned for the Red Cross, then went to Miss Taylor's room and talked to her for a while (that and I needed a CD from Miss Taylor) so that was fun. There's another person I could see myself with, cause Carrie's awesome too...

Then Dave and I played again after school today. And now I'm sitting at home. Off to do something productive, probably end up staining my shelves today and building them on Friday or Saturday.

-Shane

Monday, January 17, 2005

Hangin at Target

NP-Drunk Girl
by Something Corporate
I gotta remind myself to look into 'The Format', 'The Get Up Kids', 'Death Cab For Cutie', 'Mae', and 'JamisonParker'. All awesome Emo bands (at least two of which who have played with Something Corporate, The Format and Mae). Big thanks to whoever made the 'Music To Inspire From' iMix list on iTunes for helping me find some cool new bands to listen to.
Today was quite an interesting day. Woke up around ten and talked to Rachel online for a bit then went to my grandparents. I ended up helping out my grandparents by taking down Christmas lights and then went to Target afterwards with my mom. Then ironically enough, I ran into Rachel there so of course, we talked.
We basically just walked around target and talked for like an hour, which was really awesome. Really cool that I actually got a chance to talk to Rachel alone in person and get to know her a bit better. I really like her, she's just an awesome person to hang around. Unfortunately, we have like zero classes together next semester, and she's grounded and can't hang out till the end of the month... not good.
I've spent the last few nights up talking to her about a bunch of stuff and found out a bunch of cool things about her. She really is an awesome girl.
Alright, enough Rachel ranting. Rest of the night I played guitar. Dave learned the piano part to Hurricane and Drunk Girl, so we're gonna try playing those tomorrow, him on Piano and me on Guitar, just to see if it sounds half decent .
Anyways, Jazz Band tomorrow, so I have to get some sleep to be able to get up tomorrow. Later.
-Shane

North

NP- Miss America
by Something Corporate

Wow, lately I've tended to get into these extremely reflective mindsets during the late hours of the evening. Thinking about everything and anything there is worth thinking about. Pondering over lots of random stuff and then usually some cool tune or lyrics pop into my head so I get up at whatever time it is and start writing/playing guitar (thank goodness for the blessing of headphones). I really need to start saving for some decent recording gear. I've been working on a little bit of a solo project that's a bit different themed then most of my writing. It kinda reaches out to a different level of writing telling a story and harnassing pure emotion into something more constructive and less dark. Think more towards the direction of 'Away' (one song title I WILL be changing) and 'The Act of Cauterization'. A little more sincere, a little less raw emotion into something non constructive. The past year I've written countless stories revolving around one subject (ususally). I'm looking to shoot outside of a grey world that I wrote about before and move onto something better. Something beyond the one person I wrote about for way too long (when writing gets that repedetive, you know that something has to change). So I hope to start all that with this new little side project. I'll play around with what I have for a little while before I post it for open criticism.

Oh, and North is my favorite CD like ever.

Today I woke up from a somewhat sleepless night and went to Stake Conference where Elder Eyering (no clue how to spell his name) an Apostle, spoke to us. He's quite a good speaker, real down to earth kinda guy.

Rest of the day hung around doing random whateverness or watching kids. Played my gutiar a bit and talked to Rachel for quite a bit of today. She really is an awesome person, I'm glad I got the opportunity to be able to get to know her better. We're probably gonna end up hanging out tomorrow doing who knows what. Should be fun though :). We stayed up till about Midnight talking tonight. Exchanging stories and feelings about certain things which really helped in just being able to knkow each other better and be somewhat comfortable with each other. Very very very cool.

Anywho, I'm debating sleeping or writing, but regardless, I'm gonna wrap this rant up.

-Shane

Thursday, January 13, 2005

Skittles

NP- Hey Leonardo
by Blessed Union of Souls

I listen to this song on a rare occasion. My uncle used to listen to it and sing along when I was like 9 and I hunted it down a while back. It's my happy song :) It's an awesome song if you're in the right mood. Story about a girl who loves this guy for the person he is and doesn't care about the trivial worldly things like money. It's a cool upbeat song.

Today was actually quite good. Well, it GOT good during French class. Rachel gave me a huge bag of Skittles for 'letting her borrow my notebook'. She wrote a cute little note and everything too. She's such an awesome girl. She asked me for my email and stuff, so of course, I gave it to her. It'll really be cool if I get to know her better ;)

I better get though, I really want my electric back so I can start working more on my little 'side project'. I've been playing my acoustic for the last little while, which is all good, but I have been in a mood for some good old fashoned distortion :).

Headed to bed so I can actually wake up tomorrow.

-Shane

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

Top 5 CDs of All Time

NP- Give Me Novacaine
by Green Day

Got thinking, and decided to post a list of my top 5 CD's ever. Keep in mind this is in no particular order (other than alphabetical :P)

5. Blink-182 (self titled)
Really shows off the new Blink, which I prefer a lot more. They've really seemed to grow up a little in this one. Of course, they still have their anthems like Feeling This, but overall, much more mature. I especially enjoy Stockholm Syndrome and Down. Many great tracks on this CD which make up a great story.

4. Deja Entendu - Brand New
Amazing CD with extremely deep lyrics that cover a very broad range of subjects. Also shows the mature side of Brand New (even though their first CD was awesome as well). This CD is one that makes me think. This has also been one CD that has totally influenced my playing style. Brand new takes your basic booring power chords and comes up with some unique riffs and very unique methods of playing. They have this 'blusy' kinda feel to them and I absolutely love the bass line in Sic Transit Gloria...Glory Fades. The lyrics have an emotion to them that is undescribable... oh how I love this CD.

3. Across A Wire: Live In New York City - Counting Crows
This is the best live album I have ever heard. There's tons of songs on here that I love so much more then the studio recorded versions. Infact, there isn't a studio recorded song that can beat the live album. Has an entire CD dedicated to acoustic, while the other is another amazing concert. Counting Crows has a great way of writing lyrics that is very emotional and heartfelt.

2. American Idiot - Green Day
I was skeptical about this a little, I'm very much a republican voiced kinda guy and I didn't want this to be some stupid liberal bash, but this thing freaking rocks. Amazing lyrics with a sence of depth to them and the two nine minute balads Jesus of Suburbia and Homecoming are amazing. Has some of my favorite songs of all time on here as well. Great new direction for Green Day.

1. North - Something Corporate
My favorite of the three CD's. This really tells a story about being away from home and all the stories inbetween. Amazing CD with the best lyrics ever. Break Myself is an awesome song and the haunting balad of Me and The Moon is breathtaking. What can I say, it's Something Corporate

Looking through my CD's, I now see I missed a ton of deserving bands, but am too tired to rant on. But the honorable mentions go to Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge - My Chemical Romance, I Am The Movie - Motion City Soundtrack, Leaving Through The Window - Something Corporate, Page Avenue - Story Of The Year, Chuck and Does This Look Infected- (both by) Sum 41, The Beautiful Letdown - Switchfoot, The Artist In The Ambulance - Thrice, War All The Time - Thursday, and Maladroit - Weezer.

Lola Ray rocks too, but I have only heard one of their songs :).

-Shane

Sunday, January 09, 2005

Blowing Money

NP- Down
by Blink-182

Wow, this weekend has been... different.

Friday I stayed after school till 4:30 working on my spread for Yearbook. Finished it (amazed myself with that one...).

Went to take my guitar in for repairs around 6 or so. Hopefully I'll have it back this week. I've really been hurting the last week it's been gone...

Then we went to the mall and I dropped a bit of cash... Bought a pair of jeans for the first time since I was in 3rd grade and a really nice quicksilver jacket that cost me 50 bucks... Then cashed in my hot topic card and got a cool Green Day shirt.

Saturday was a Saturday, hung out around the house all day long.

Sunday...well, I dont even have to explain that one do I?

Buying SoCo tix tomorrow at 5, I'm stoked. It'll be a good concert.

-Shane

Thursday, January 06, 2005

Overload

NP-Pink Triangle
by Weezer

Today was one of those days that started off crappy and leveled off to be a half decent day. Got to school late and had office aid. Stopped by Mr. Wrights room to get some pictures for Yearbook and to ask about his wife and how her new baby was. So we ended up talking for about 15 minutes and I went to the Yearbook room. Mrs. Anderson wasn't happy that I was doing yearbook stuff instead of office aid stuff. But, I was told that I'm allowed to get out of any class whenever to do yearbook cause it's my first priority and stuff accoring to Houtz. So no one can officially nail me :).

Rest of the day rid out well. I actually did well on my Math test surprizingly. Day ended and I got home and worked on my English crap all night long. I talked to Trish just a tad and called Shaun to talk about concert stuff. Then near the end of the evening, Carrie got online and I talked to her a little bit.

Taking my guitar in to the shop tomorrow (finally). I can't wait to get through tomorrow, have my English crap all done, yearbook deadline done, all set and ready :).

35 Days, its killing me. Can't wait!

Oh, also please check out The Act of Cauterization on www.torturedartist.blogspot.com. Very very different from my normal writing, kind of an evil song. No cussing at all and not meant to do anything but tell a story. It's basically a story about a girl who is taken advantage of. Not that I would EVER do that to anyone, I believe in something called 'respecting women' :)

-Shane

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

'Sick' on a Tuesday

NP-Fall
by Something Corporate

Today has been one of those very long days. I stayed home cause I was to lazy to get up and go to school. Wasn't feeling amazing either.

Read and did math. All day long.

Went to mutual.

Can't wait for SoCo, only 37 more days...

-Shane

Monday, January 03, 2005

Dammit

NP-Dammit
by Blink-182

First off, I'd like to anounce the end of an era. My favorite pair of headphones which have stayed loyal to me for over three long years (cheapo freebie headphones that I got back when I bought my Gameboy Advance) have finally passed away. After noticing that the plastic covering to the cable was comming off near the jack of the headphones and revealing the wiring, I waited for the end to come soon...

Mind you, this was my first pair of headphones that were the 'behind the head' style we all have grown to love. This puppy came out after that behind the head style became popular.

Lent my pair of earphones to my sister and when they were returned, I noticed a short in the right ear of my beloved headphones... So I'll probably have to steal a pair of my dads or something. I don't know, headphones don't tend to last long with me and usually end up shorting out for some stupid reason. If/When I get headphones for studio recording, I hope they last longer then these stupid little buggers i've bought before.

Though, kudos to these old GBA headphones for lasting me so long. I truly am greatful for all the service they have shown me. May you rest in peace...

Wow, that was a pointless rant. Went to school and it was pretty much school. Long, booring, ect. I have a 300 page book I get to read and write a report before Friday on. As well as a mini-deadline due on Friday as well in Yearbook... Plus I can imagine what's in store for me tomorrow for Algebra II and I bet I have seminary homework from ditching school (and aparently seminary) at least four times this semester, meaning I get to do something to make it up. Who knows what that might be. I can't wait for this stupid term to end.

Kudos to Trish on her two tests today. Sounds like me and most of my math tests as well as my French quiz today ;)

Drama occured today (aparently?) and I got a call from Mariah after school. My goal is to stay as far away from the situation as humanly possible. An undramatic year, psh, very unrealistic new years resolution but who cares. My other ones are cooler anyways and last year I didn't do well on those resolutions I made anyways. Plus, usually it isn't me who causes the drama. I just tend to make it worse or get sucked in somehow ;). Usually my own intention.

Got home, did homework, played guitar (singing sucks when you're voice is gone. You're vocal range is very constricted), and read. Yes, read. All night long. Good book called Fifth Dawn, but I'm so freaking scared I won't get the damn thing done by Friday. Though being the master procrastinator that I am (over inflated ego rises even more), I figure I'll get it done.

We DID go out for icecreme at Cold Stone today, and I guess that was cool. Nice little break with the family, eat ice cream, relax a little.

Talked to Dan on the phone and he's gonna come over Wednesday and we're taking a soddering iron to my baby till I fix the stupid thing. I really do NOT want to blow money right now on anything. My plan is to buy the SoCo tix sometime next week. The sooner the better, so whenever I get everyone's cash I'll be able to purchase those. Then I will probably save for the rest of the month to get some cool crap when I'm at the concert. I can always use more Something Corporate stuff. Though mcgrabbles (had to use that one for Mitch) knows that I will blow more money then I should, especially being like 120 bucks in debt (again).

Hope my friggin' CD comes in the mail tomorrow. I've been waiting a while to get The Atari's...

Sorry for the pissy mood. I really should start writing or something, but I'm too tired :).

If I somehow offhended anyone with some unnecessary comment or something profound that I didn't catch, I'm sorry. I can't even remember what I wrote about above and am way too lazy to scroll up and read it again tonight.

-Shane

Sunday, January 02, 2005

Holiday In Wallsburg

NP- Hitchin A Ride
by Green Day

Saturday I slept in trying to recover from New Years Eve and talking to Mattie till three in the morning (again, not a bad thing of course). Jess called me and told me that she'd aranged for me to get a ride with her Grandfather to Wallsburg. So, I hitched a ride with her Grandpa. Talked with him the whole way up, he seemed like a cool guy. Finally got there and we shot darts just for fun for a little while and talked (Ed was with us, he lives there of course). Then we headed outside and built a snowman with most of her family then went sleading for fun. Her famly is so awesome, I enjoy talking and spending time with them, they're all just such good people. After we got done hanging out outside (11 freakin inches of snow), we went inside and ate lunch while waiting for Mattie, Kimber, and Mack to come over. They finally made it and we all went down and played Fooseball. Kimber pretty much killed us all at that one. Then we all squished on the couch and watched a movie for the rest of the time. Really fun, it was great to see Mattie, Jess and Ed again and to meet Kimber and Mack. It's once in a blue moon that I get to go up there to see everyone, so glad that I lucked out.

Kevin (Jess's dad) had to go into Orem so I hitched a ride with him to Orem. Really cool to talk with him too. We talked about his job and my school and stuff. Then we started talking about guitar and that was quite cool. Aparently, he made his money his Junior and Senior year playing gigs. Has an extremely nice Gibson from 77. Resembles a Les Paul but is a little thinner (slightly thicker then an SG) and has a minibucker in the bridge and humbucker in the neck as opposed to a humbucker in both the neck and bridge. Anywho, quite a cool guitar then he had this full blown full stack with four twelve inch speakers.

So we rode back and talked the whole time and met my mom in the Maceys parking lot.

Drove back home with my mom and stuff then hung out at home for the rest of the evening. Later that night, took my guitar apart trying to figure out what the heck the unnatural buzzing sound was but couldn't find out the problem...

Stayed up till about midnight trying to get that stupid thing fixed with no success... gall it really pisses me off...

Today I woke up and went to church. Our schedule starts at 9 now... so I was wasted this morning and extremely tired. Then we get to go to school tomorrow... joy...

-Shane

Saturday, January 01, 2005

New Year 05

NP-Space
by Something Corporate

Wow, I'm surprized I finally made it through this year. I'm gonna rant and rave about a few key events this year in just a little. But first, the events of the day.

Woke up and went to Mike's for a little Jam session with him and Mitch. Had fun, then came home and hung out for a little while. Realized that there was a funny buzzing sound from my guitar.... don't know why, probably a connection issue with the humbuckers... Dan's gonna have to try to fix it or something, I dont feel like blowing money on repairs... no clue how I did it though. But I'm pissed.

Went to the New Years Eve dance, which majorly sucked. I almost left countless times. But it gradually became half decent. Danced with a bunch of girls, but the one of particular interest was Ashley.

I asked her to dance not realizing who she was. Then I asked her what her name was and she responded who she was. Then I registered that she was the kid who was next door neighbors with my grandparents. I used to play with her all the time when I was little :) It was cool to see her again. And to top it off, she's a very cute girl ;). Ironic how things work out huh?

Dance ended and I went home. Now I'm talking with Mattie. Hopefully I'll get to go up to Wallsburg tomorrow and see everyone :).

Alright onto my ranting and raving. If it becomes sappy or stupid, I'm sorry. But I like to whine a little once and a while.

This year's been very long and very hard. I imagine that 05 is going to be even more hectic and problems are only going to get worse...

Driving, Dating, High School. It'll all add up and get even more dramatic. Life goes on, people change, It'll be interesting who's my friends are next year, who will fade and who will come into my life. Who I'll end up dating, who I'll get hurt by, who I'll hurt...

Who knows, my life could end tomorrow for all I know and maybe not get to experience that. But how terrible would that be? Relinquishing all those events. I look forward to this ear and expect a lot out of it, yet I know how hard it will be...

I've accepted that people change. That's been a really hard one to accept. I've also accepted that I've changed as well, which is another tricky one to accept. I've accepted a thought of being alone, of being loved by someone and not being able to love them back, of loving someone and not having them love me back.

And yeah... long year...

My one resolution is to become a better guitarist. This first year of playing guitar has been awesome and hopefully it'll get even better as time goes on. Hopefully find some band members eventually and start something. Cause I think playing for people would be the funnest thing in the world.

Anywho, off to bed. Its three AM... might go to Wallsburg tomorrow (I hope...). So I gotta get up at a decent hour.

Konstantine is still an awesome song

-Shane